I picked up a bible and read each page carefully from the first page of Genesis and until the very last word of Revelation. I was still incomplete in understanding to what God is all about… but I did notice the “Trust” the people in the Bible always abide to. It was literally everywhere, and God always delivers His promises. At that point in time, I was reading a verse that read, “He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it.” – Matthew 10:39 It was like… what? But if you go and read the whole verse before that explains about how we should not love ANYTHING or ANYONE before Him and whoever does so will lose their life. This gave me great peace and it made sense to love God first. This was when I first acted solely on faith and tested the words that God said that He would show me how to find my life if I chose to leave everything behind. I told Him, “I am holding You by Your WORD. I am leaving what I know to find You.” At the time, I just wanted to test God’s faithfulness if He will ever give my family back if I followed Him. I knew that He is a God of love so it can’t be that frightening. Well, I was wrong, it was pretty frightening and scary but only in that time. After I stepped out of the “darkness”, I saw the miracles and He did give me my family back. That was a miracle in itself, but what I didn’t know though, was that I will receive much more than that.
I learned so many things about God throughout the years. Sometimes our eyes are half open and our arms aren’t freely reaching out for God even after we declare that Jesus is Lord and Savior. That’s the thing about mankind, we are stubborn and refuse to see above ourselves. I learned that to abandon and refusing to follow His word meant a life full of confusion and heartaches. It meant a life of storms that will drown me because I was not meant to live this life without Him. The moment I decided to follow Him FULLY with all my heart and all my mind….I learned that the more I know of God, the more I love Him, the more I want to live my life to glorify Him. Mind before the heart. My heart continues to grow in love the more my mind understands. Jesus had disciples that followed Him and they loved Him. I know now it is because they KNOW who He is. The more you love someone, the more you are interested in what they love. I love my husband through what my mind has learned about him, I love him more now than I did eleven years ago. We, as humans, love others even though they are imperfect. This is a model of God’s love for us. We are made in His image. All the amazing things we do are embedded in our hearts and minds to continually have the strength to choose to love. Choosing to love and to do good isn’t always easy but that immeasurable power is through God’s power. God loves me even though I am imperfect. He loved me through the times I did not accept Him. When I didn’t know Him… He created a pathway and saved ME from every consequence.
The other day as I was driving down the street to pick up my daughter from school, I was oddly thinking of the life I used to have and the weird events of my younger years before I even accepted Jesus… I was always protected. Through every mishap that SHOULD have ended another way, didn’t. I’ve never really believed in coincidences, but at times I thought it could have been just that… but how many mishaps are you supposed to be delivered from every single time? I am mind blown. It could not just be coincidences. God knew my heart and He knew the endless thoughts in my mind. God KNEW I was searching for Him… and He protected me from everything that could have hindered my journey to Him. This yearning of mine was a good thing. I no longer say, “I know of God” but now I faithfully proclaim that I know God’s goodness, that I know God’s heart and I know He love us. I am blessed to be here, right here, right now. I am beyond blessed and feel extremely loved by God. I have a wonderful marriage by a man who loves Him, too. He delivered us from anything evil and He blessed us with MANY wonderful gifts. He also gave us a pathway to find other people who also love Him wholeheartedly. My family has grown, my mind has matured… that could only mean one thing. My heart has grown.
It takes our hearts and our minds to receive the freedom God wants us to have. Loving God and following His word is not meant to hurt us, but to free us. I am loved. YOU are loved. Let’s take a step of faith with me and pray together.
I am coming to you today to thank You for all that You have done for me. You died for me. You saved me from everything harmful in my life. You lifted every storm that drowned me and You never gave up on me. You continually love me. I am thankful of the fact that you blessed me with this blog to share my love for You with others. I thank You for giving me the strength and the confidence to share the Truth. I pray for my readers that they too feel that unfailling love from You. Let them seek You with both their minds and their hearts so they know You, Lord. So that they could love Y
ou the more they know of You. I pray for my friends that read this post that they let go of anything that holds them back from You, that they too can be free through you. Touch their minds and hearts and give them the wisdom to know that it is You knocking at their door, that no matter what they have done, it is forgiven and erased. I pray for their willingness to open the door and to glorify You, Lord because glorifying you means a life of freedom and a life of joy. I pray in Jesus name, Amen.